‘I’m still that kid who can’t believe this is happening.’

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“When I was 7, my mom took me to see ‘Fiddler on the Roof.’ I had to get dressed up with a jacket and bowtie. I remember her saying, ‘You have to sit still, and you can’t make noise because this is live and they can hear you.’ It scared me! On the way out she said, ‘I have never seen you sit so still! I’m going to have to take you to more shows!’ At 9, I realized theater is what I wanted to do.

“I couldn’t sing or dance, but I intuitively guessed that there must be someone who’s in charge of all of the moving parts. I’d see shows on Broadway and touring shows on Long Island. I went to SUNY Oneonta and traveled into the city four times a year for a seminar from the [American] Theatre Wing about working in theater. One day, Isabelle Stevenson came up to me and said, ‘You’re here all the time. Are you in the business?’ I said, ‘No, but I’m desperate to get into it. I love theater!’ She told me about a new MFA [master of fine arts] program at Columbia University in arts management. I thought my interview there couldn’t have gone worse. They said, ‘It’s a very competitive program. Why should we admit you?’ I blurted out, ‘Because no one wants it more or will work harder than me.’ To my surprise, I was accepted!

I still get excited every time I see a theater and I watch people enter it.

“I shadowed a stage manager and interned in a box office and as Sheryl Lee Ralph’s assistant during ‘Dreamgirls.’ I got a job managing operations at Minetta Lane Theatre and worked my way up until I came on board ‘Jelly’s Last Jam’ as an associate. Thirty years later, I’m very proud of the work I’ve done, including ‘Kinky Boots’ and ‘Thoroughly Modern Millie.’ I’m bringing over ‘Life of Pi’ from London and working on the revival of ‘Here Lies Love.’

“I’m still that kid who can’t believe this is happening. Even after two Tonys, I think I suffered from impostor syndrome. I’m finally able to look at my shows and know I helped create wonderful stories that will live on. I’ve learned that I have the capacity to be anxious and effective at the same time and to face my fears. Someone mentioned retirement. I know it will be time to retire when I walk into a theater and I don’t feel a butterfly in my stomach. I still get excited every time I see a theater and I watch people enter it.”

‘Growing up all I had were my siblings. It was hard for me to make friends, but I have five sisters, so who needs friends when you have an army?’

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“I’m an entertainer at Gossip. But I am not a stripper. What people don’t understand is I am actually an exotic aerialist. I put on an actual choreographed performance where I hang from the rafters. I’m actually deathly scared of heights. But for some reason, you can put me 25, 30, 40 feet, in the air while I do this, and I’m fine. But if you put me on a roller coaster, I am passed out from screaming.

“I have a regular day job too. I’m a flagger, so I go from construction work to my night job where I come out with hoops, straps and climb up to the ceilings. They are two completely different worlds. I also have a hairdresser’s license and make all my own cosmetics. It’s New York. You need more than one job, especially during COVID. You weren’t putting makeup on people. There was nothing open. No live entertainment. But I still had work, thanks to my construction job. We weren’t near anybody, so we didn’t have to worry.

My younger sisters are triplets. They still live with me, and I helped put them all through school.

“I am always looking for what I can do next as a performer because if you keep doing the same show over and over again, it gets stale. I’ve gone out to Brooklyn and Manhattan for circus classes and have even taken some private pole dancing classes with male instructors.

“I’ve also appeared in movies and shows. I was a background dancer in the opening scene of an episode of the Showtime series, “Billions,” and was the main background for J-Lo’s “Hustlers” music video. That was cool. They kept me for all five days of the shoot. Most girls only got two. I got all five. But every day on set they had to cover up my tattoos with make-up.

“Growing up all I had were my siblings. It was hard for me to make friends, but I have five sisters, so who needs friends when you have an army? My younger sisters are triplets. They still live with me, and I helped put them all through school.

“I also take care of my 78-year-old grandmother, who lives with me. She’s fabulous. She’s the cutest little old-school Italian lady from Brooklyn. I offered to start taking care of her when COVID hit because I didn’t want her placed into a nursing home. She’s very proud of me from what I can understand, and she always waits up for me at night. I love my grandmother.”